|3 quarters of the way through!
||[Jan. 1st, 2005|10:40 pm]
I'm 30+3 today - only 9 weeks & 4 days left to go! Seems so close, yet also so far away.
I still have no stretch marks & my weight is still quite stable, lingering around my pre-pregnancy weight. I feel very lucky not to have gained anything so far. I'm not expecting to be so lucky in the coming weeks as the baby gains weight significantly, but I feel very good to have come this far with no added baggage.
Zac's movements are becoming more defined now. Feeling him move is quite an amazing experience. It's very different from the flutters that I initially felt. I don't get those anymore - I get huge rolls & prods that are very difficult to miss. He's taken to kicking me in the ribs which is quite painful, but I don't mind - having the knowledge that he's doing well is more than worth the discomfort.
The coming weeks are really busy for me. I have to sit 2 Sociology exams on the 10th, which I haven't yet done any work for. I am incredibly unprepared and feeling quite guilty and stressed about it all. 2 days after those exams, I have my 4th driving test. I'm so desperate to have my drivers license before Zac's arrival. I'm not getting my hopes up though, because the test here really is so difficult & my nerves don't help. I so badly want to be a Mum who can drive - the thought of dragging my baby around on public transport isn't too nice! I'm half expecting to fail this test, even though my driving is up to scratch. I'm dreading it, yet at the same time I just want it over. Fingers crossed they pass me! (although finger crossing has never worked in the past, so I don't see why I should even bother) A week after my driving test, I have a university interview & I'm slightly worried that my bump will effect their judgement of me. Being 33 weeks pregnant at 19 doesn't tend to give a good impression, despite my unusual circumstances; most 19 year olds don't tend to be married and settled like I am. After the 19th, everything will be a lot calmer. I can't wait to have it all over. I am so stressed about all the upcoming events, & I feel bad for putting my baby through it all. At the end of the day, it's all so that he can have a better life, so I don't feel too selfish for it.
My antenatal classes start on the 10th aswell. I'm not sure that they'll be that useful - I don't see what I can be taught that I don't already know. Nick will probably benefit more from them than I will, but then I don't see him getting all the excited about it.
To close, I will include my 30 week bump pics, taken yesterday:
( 30 week bumpCollapse )